Monday, December 17, 2007
life has been going as rough as it did early this year, the time when mak knew about Jesse and that thing.
Haiys, I practically can't breath right now. We smsed each other last night, the longest we've ever sms. from 1 till 4 in the morning. We just talked about us. It was really really hard. I told him straight that I can't imagine myself not being with him. He just seems like the only one that understands me nowadays and that when I dont't have him, a part of me feels empty. Really empty. I rather feel pain than loosing someone like that. Despite the fact that he had done that to me has been the lowest point I've felt about myself. I really don't know what to do, my mind is going crazy by the day. So far I've told Nisha, Andrew, Alyssa and Tasha. Now like always Tasha smacked me right in the face with the truth. But I really did wanted to hear the truth.
I'm talking to ashraf now. I miss him. Like all the other people in the world, he's telling me that it wasn't a suprise to him that jesse did that. I guess he's right. EVERYBODY'S RITE.
fuck the world.
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