ok. so, continueing. I THOUGHT we were suppose to go down and do the popcorn, but these lazy asses are gossiping about Sam's Honky friends to Am. That means I can continue my big ass story.

Sooo.. where were we? Alrite, skating rink. I should have gotten ready with camera to catch the moment where Sam jumped on to Am and surprised her. Am's face was PRICELESS!

To briefly tell the whole outing, we skated and then we got bored VERY soon after that (altho, I wanted to skate summore). Went walking around Sunway, to the new block also. Tried on some dresses in MNG and Roxy. Took many photos of ourselves pretending to be hot like a model or something. Lol

At 730, went to TGIF and ate dinner. Wasn't really hungry so we just ordered a few appetizers. When it came to the cake time, all the waiters in TGIF were SHIT bersemangated, singing shit random songs. They were barely singing the Happy Birthday song. Am had to stand up at the chair, was forced to sing (LOLZORRS!!) and make a speech. I nearly became pissed at Am because I thought she had forgotten to mention me in her speech. Lol. But she did.. In the end.. saying "..and I'll like to thank Farah for planning everything..." aww! =)

OH OH! Did I tell you guys.. all of us had our second and third piercings on before we went for dinner. Am and Sam pierced their third whole on their left ear. So did I, but that was my second hole. My first one was also at my left ear. So right now I'm considered as a double-gay. =)

After dinner, we rushed ourselves to the supermarket downstairs to buy the popcorn and credit. I actually FELL cause I slipped, as I was about to go off the escalator. It was hilarious, but I was the only one that didn't find it amusing. Lol. I was IN PAIN OK... I was excited though cause I could finally get bandages for myself. =) I love bandages...

Am's mom picked us up at 930 and we went straight online. So that was when my EMO feelings started to get EMO. Checked all my mails. Replied Trixie's mail and checked Jesse's profile. He had ABSOLUTELY stripped me off from his profile. I even logged in to his msn account and his personal msg was "finally over". I got FUCKING piss at what I saw but was soon calmed down by Am and Sam. I finally told both of them, after keeping it for nearly a week. They gave me advices, told me what to do right now. I'm just simply going to ignore him from my life for about a week or so. Give him space or something, cause right now he's acting as if I was the one that cheated on him.


I just hope I'll be fully occupied in Kuala Kangsar. I don't have any Internet access there at all, but I guess that will help me. Something's wrong with my phone. I CANNOT top-up AT ALL!! Maybe it IS a sign. I mean, I don't really need to contact anyone. And I do pun, I'll just use my mom's.

Alright then. Wanna go now.. Wanna drag both of these donkeys to get their asses moving.
byeeee again!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY AMMIE!.. we're ALL 14!! FINALLY!

Ok. I'm in Am's house now. Had a blast the whole day today. From this morning in Janda Baik with cousins till just now in Sunway celebrating Am's birthday with SAMIRA!! Yeap! She's finally back from Honky.

I was in Janda Baik this morning, with all the cousins. Pak Long and Mak Long woke up like at 4 to go back to KL cause Pak Long had work to go to. We all woke up, I made waffles for breakfast. Was about to bath, but the small kids asked me to set up an amazing race thingy for them. So I was stuck thinking of what to write in their clues.

Bla bla bla (not really in the mood to type all the details).. Me, Mak and Kak Shasha left from there at 130. The rest will go back with Abah. So anyways, we dropped Kak Shasha off to IJN, she's going to go to Dubai tomorrow night with the rest of her family. I hope they will have fun.

Sam called me at like 1 right after the plane touched down. She called me when she was IN THE PLANE! Lol. That girl. So anyways, Mak and I went to Am's house, initially suppose to pick her up and go to Sunway, but I told Mak and Am's mom that we had to stall time till Sam arrives at Sunway. In the end we got there with Am's mom instead. I had no credit, so imagine me trying to get in touch with Sam, wondering where the hell she had gone. I had to use AM'S PHONE!! Lol. I thought I blew the whole surprise because Am was like "who the fuck called Sam?" when she checked her phone. I sounded like such a noob when I was pretending to talk to Jesse when instead I was trying to tell Sam we were at the rink already. Lol

ok wait.. gna go down, teman mak nenek take a drink waiit.

okok so. i've just told Sam and Am about why I'm bloody piss. I've got to go now. Gna watch the Notebook and paint our nails. Going to Kuala Kangsar tomorrow too. So shit! I won't be online for a LOOONG time. Will continue all this when I get back.

BYEEEE seeyyou

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life has been going as rough as it did early this year, the time when mak knew about Jesse and that thing.

Haiys, I practically can't breath right now. We smsed each other last night, the longest we've ever sms. from 1 till 4 in the morning. We just talked about us. It was really really hard. I told him straight that I can't imagine myself not being with him. He just seems like the only one that understands me nowadays and that when I dont't have him, a part of me feels empty. Really empty. I rather feel pain than loosing someone like that. Despite the fact that he had done that to me has been the lowest point I've felt about myself. I really don't know what to do, my mind is going crazy by the day. So far I've told Nisha, Andrew, Alyssa and Tasha. Now like always Tasha smacked me right in the face with the truth. But I really did wanted to hear the truth.

I'm talking to ashraf now. I miss him. Like all the other people in the world, he's telling me that it wasn't a suprise to him that jesse did that. I guess he's right. EVERYBODY'S RITE.

fuck the world.

ok soo.. where was I?

Oh yea, Uncle Afiq's bday. It was darn fun. The theme was red, black and white. I dunno what Aunty Rozina was thinking, but she hired like 6 drag queens dressed up like show girls from Las Vegas. Man, what a terrible sight when I saw their unattractive black underwears that they were wearing. ew.w.. w..

Ok so. After I gone back home. Things started to go SHIT wrong. I finally knew why Jesse had been avoiding me the whole time right after the MCR, the only thing I can say was that I wasn't the cause of him not talking to me. I would love to pour my depression here but Am and Sam wants me to save it for the sleepover.. Lol, Sam sibuk nak berskype with us. lol.

Nways, I was suppose to go out today. Planned to go to ou, watch I Am Legend with Jesse, Andrew and Johan. When i asked Mak she passed the phone to Abah and he said no. Haiys, there goes my chance to hang out.

So generally, the only thing I did today was talk to Am.... That's it.. =.= Am...

Lol, we planned her bday thingie. I swear, when she was telling me HER plan for the bday it was sooo not what I was thinking we were suppose to do. Haha, that girl. In her own world.

I'm smsing Jesse now. God only knows how this convo will end like.

Going to a wedding soon. So those people I use to chat at night, wait for me to come back yea? byee.

Ok, end of the weekdays had been quite ok. I just had a huge fight with Mak when we were about to go back from Janda Baik yesterday (Thursday)

F arah = In KL and will always be till the holiday ends.
A thira = About to leave Canada this weekend and won't be seeing her for ages to come.
T asha = Just came back from Singapore and will be off to London next week
J ade = Is living up her dreams in London and won't be back till after the hols
A malina = Just came back from USA and will be lifeless like me for quite sometime
S amira = In Hong Kong flirting with people but will come back to KL soon.

Soooo.. as far as I'm concern, us FATJAS will NEVER EVER! meet up with each other at ALL!!!!! Probably the next time we get to see each other is during Mid yea hols.

this sucks

Nways, I'm now at Abah's office. Abah's gone home. Lol. I'm with my mom, but she's checking out Abah's massage chair now (WHICH he didn't tell us about). Going to kraf tangan soon then I'll be off to Aunty Rozina's husband's (Uncle Afiq) suprise party in Sime Darby convention centre.

...now why is it these days ALL i hear about is Sime Darby....


seyu

the weekend has been going great so far, till like 2 hours ago.
the family, mak's friend Aunty Hajah Mariani and Aunty Juliet from Sime Darby, and Sophiya, Arina's friend all spent the weekends in Janda Baik. It was fun, yea yea... It was lonely for me though. That was why i practically spent my whole day yesterday and today in my room. Hemming *yes, sewing* my curtains and the drapes for my four poster bed. My room looks way nicer and cosier to sleep in then it was before. Bought quite alot of stuff in Ikea before we went to Janda Baik on Friday evening too.

... oh gosh, i just found out that my uncle is coming tmr to KL, so that means we're going to go Janda Baik again. OMG.. =.=

Okok... Just before we were about to leave to KL. Jesse called me, yea that was when my weekends started to become bad. You see, I totally ignored that fact that tonight(NOW!) was MCR concert till Jesse called and reminded me. When I asked him where he was, he told me at Stadium Merdeka, about to watch the concert with Johan. I'm like, waat ddeee fuck.

I was soooooo pissed and GERAM shit. I called Tasha and it turns out she's at the front of the line and have been waiting with Athira since 11 just now.. Bugger. They buggers must be having their time of their lives right now, with Gerard's sweat dripping on their faces *cross fingers for you guys*.

Nways, during that geram mood I was having, I was already on the way back with Abah and Mak Tin and I started to imagine and day dream... Sorry for those Mikey Way lovers for me to even thought of this, but, i was hoping Mikey or anyone from MCR to have a heart attack or something and he *whoever that is* would be sent to IJN and with luck Abah gets to operate on him. I was practically dreaming... From me being shit good friends with Gerard, till Gerard having my number and one day calls me out of the blue to say thank you to my father (..and me..) for helping Mikey.

Haiys... I may sound like a fanatic fan of MCR who her parents didn't let her go to a concert cause she is not 16, but I'm not THAT crazy about them as some of my best friends. Although me not allowed to go to concerts before i turn 16 or after PMR is unfortunately very VERY true. OH BUGGER.

ciao. seeya.

Yeap. Had a fairly tale date this morning.
Well, that was what i was wishing for. Instead i got to spend a nice late-morning/early-afternoon with my darling boyfriend in a over crowded cinema theatre watching a fairly tale movie. Oh what the heck. It was sweet... =I

I woke up shit early, (9 am) just in time to watch Oprah. It was Dr. Oz again. He IS a good doctor because he makes people understand stuff CLEARLY about heart problems or any sort of problems affecting human beings (Americans mostly) these days. He's a heart surgeon, just like my dad, but the thing is he is way better at explaining complicated stuff to people who doesn't have a clue on what the first word a heart surgeon says. He explains it through animated videos about heart attacks and others. He even brought live (from dead people) organs to the Oprah Show once, and I learn ALOT from him. Now my dad, on the other hand, speaks in some sort of language to me and the rest of my family about different sorts of heart problems and operations that we just sit there and pretend to find it "fascinating!!". No la kidding, we do find it kinda interesting.

ANYWAYS, I told Mak that Athira is coming to fetch me in less than an hour and that got Mak sooo pissed at me! She kept on telling me stuff like "OH! so that's your tactic now?! Make plans only God knows about and only telling me 5 minutes before you're about to go?!"

In the end, Mak did let me go out (I didn't think she had a choice), but sadly I had to use my own money. Athira picked me up, dropped by at 711 to buy her top-up and fecthing Jesse along. We met Shi Fen and Tessa soon after we arrived in OU. Was not intending to, but we did. Me and Athira still followed our plan. Went to Forever 21 but didn't even pick up any clothes off the rack. Walked like a maniac all over OU to surfer shops and sports shops to look for our bikinis. Found them in Jaya Jusco (lol) after half an hour of walking in and out of shops. Jesse couldn't catch up with us two so he made his way to MPH. We all met again in GSC at 12pm (this was also not planned) to catch the first showing of Enchanted. I was excited to watch it again for the second time because I missed at least 15 minutes of the movie the last time. But after that Gizelle lady had sang "How does she knooooow, she LOVES yooouu..." song, I was starting to doze off. Jesse and I were the only two out of Athira, Megan, Tessa, Shi Fen, Chin San, Chin Loong and Ronald that have already watched it. So both of us ditched them and walked around OU.

Met those guys again after the movie, but Uncle Nik was already around the corner to fetch me. Mak asked me to go home cause Abah is going to pick me up after Friday prayers to go to Janda Baik.

I didnt know what happened but I had a MAJOR rash right before I went back. My whole chest was ALL RED! Jesse said maybe it was the amount of caramel popcorn I was eating and a lump of just the caramel sugar that was at the bottom of the box. Maybe....

I'm here in IJN now. Actually waiting for Abah to finish his meeting downstairs that he squeezed in before we go to Janda Baik. I don't know what is up with him and that place. Lol.

..... can't wait to pasang my bed in Janda Baik...

= can someone help me change the layout of this BORING-ASS blog of mine. At least someone would actually be interested in reading my boring-ass life.

seeyu.

1 December

Last day of holiday in Bali/Lombok.
ABAH'S 47th BIRTHDAY!!

All the details will be posted on another post about my holiday in Bali and Lombok on the last week of November. =)


2 December

I woke up in the morning, Mak and Abah told me that we were going to Janda Baik straight away (why isn't that a suprise?) after Abah picks up Adilah and Huda (cousins) from Kajang. Mak, Mak Tin (maid) and I made our way there and we met the rest in the sup ekor restaurant near my house in Janda Baik. When we got there, Abah told us that an earthquake had happened TWICE in Janda Baik. Earthquake?? What the fuck?! I mean maybe yes, Malaysia would probably feel the earthquakes that's been happening quite often from all over Indonesia, but COME ON Janda Baik is like IN the MIDDLE of MALAYSIA.

The temperature there for the whole day was suprisingly very VERY cold. It was WAY colder there than in Bali (now i know some of you think Bali is hot, but usually its not, but when i got there recently it was hot, suprisingly, nvm). It was SHIT COLD in the night, and i didnt even open the window OR the FAN! I helped Mak make dinner for all of us while Mak and Abah would be going back to KL to PWTC for a dinner about something to do with Abah's old boarding school, MRSM (Martab Rendah Sains something). Abah had to give a speech to the students there about how he was the first surgeon in Asia to do bla bla bla.

I watched OC season 3 till they came back at 1230. I managed to watch 4 episodes (an hour for each). Jesse called me after that and we had a sweet talk. I love him =)

.....oh shit, its already the next day........ lol


3 December

Ok so, I woke up at 730 AM!!! yea! considering that i slept at 2. Well the rest had already woke up to a very VERY cold morning. It really really reminded me of when i was in switzerland. it was COLDER then than in the small cottage in the middle of a snowy atmosphere (Zermatt). I promised everyone that i made Waffles for breakfast. Since i forgotten to bring EVERYTHING (including the waffle maker) Mak dropped by at Giant in Pusat Bandaraya to buy some of the ingredients (and well, ironicly Mak had forgotten to buy BAKING POWDER =.=). So i did the batter in some shit ass cold whether. The tap water was shit ass cold. By the time Mak and Abah called, we were all bathed and ready to eat breakfast. Mak suddenly told all of us "I have an announcement to make, When Mak and Abah were at the dinner last night, we sat onthe VIP table. And guess who were sitting beside me... Dr Syeikh Muzaffar!!!" Now for those of you who are doofus enough not to know who the F he is. He is the angkasawan (?, astraunut la banggak) Mak was blabbing about evevery single detail of their conversations together. She even told us she noticed some of the girl students that were there were staring at Mak in some kind of way. Well DURH! That dude is HOT!! I told Mak that he was rumoured to be gay, she was like "ISHH!!!"... lol

Now, after that i continued to watch OC, and guess what. I felt a third EARTHQUAKE. It was just a 2 second shake, but HELL i felt it. Dammit sial. The rest of the late-morning/early-afternoon was spent calling each other (Nisha/Tasha/Jesse) and planning our plan to meet each other in OU later on that day. Tasha and Athira had Banun's suprise birthday dinner to attend to that night so we planned on meeting each other in OU so that all of us (Me, Nisha, Tasha and Athira) could go back to Tasha's house for a sleepover. All i know that it was hell for me before i got to meet them all. Mak and I couldn't stop arguing. I first told her that i had to be in OU by 4 cause me and Nisha is catching a movie at 445pm. I had already gotten worried at the pace we're going cause we only ate lunch at 3 and to get to KL is about one hour. RIght after lunch, i was restlees already because Mak was watching tv and making herself comfortable. Abah suddenly decided he wanted to go to Kijal (Terengganu) this evening (meaning now) to go and get my wooden bed. SO! that means we all have to get out of Janda Baik. At that time, the rest were in the jacuzzi and it was OBVIOUS that i had already passed my deadline. Thank god for Tasha, cause she was there in OU with Nisha. We all only gotten out of the house one hour after that and actually GOT OUT of Janda Baik another hour from then. The other car had broken down and thank god for a workshop nearby, we could leave our car there. 8 people crammed in our Volvo car (5 seaters some more). I got to ou AN HOUR AFTER THAT. WOW! So i you do the math, i got to OU at nearly 6 o'clock. It's ok, I was just AN HOUR in A HALF late for the movie. But I still got to watch abit. Enchanted was a good movie. Very musical, very nice.

After the movie, we met Kevin, Suffyan, Nick, Mun Loong, Andrew, and Hanan. We hanged around the Big Apple donut shop and had to wait for AGES for a new batch of donuts to be made. But it was ok. Jesse can eventually, from Mun Heem's birthday party in Midvalley. Nisha, Jesse and I parted from the rest of them to do our own stuff. They went to the party downstairs at Delicious. We didn't had a clue on what to do after we ate dinner in Chilli's. Nisha suggested to go check out the baseball thing on the rooftop. It was SUPER FUN there. SUPER! I rocked at it acutaly, hehe.

Besides that, we met Tasha and Athira after their dinner. Me and Jesse spent time with each other for quite a while. We both needed that time cause HELL we haven't saw each other for a long time. I nearly forgotten how it felt to hold hands with him. Lol. It was that hard to say goodbye to him cause i guess we had ENOUGH of each other by that day. Lol.

Aunty Intan picked us up eventually and we got back to Tasha's house. Wow, ALOT of changes in her house. Goes to show how long i haven't been to her house. We settled down and Tasha showed us alot of videos about this comedian, Jeff Dunham and his 3 pupetts where we does their sounds to. You know, saying their voice without moving your own lips, what's it call?? Anyway, it was HELL FUNNY!!! Seriously funny. Go look in youtube.com, check out his videos. Tasha also showed us these videos from the movie/musical Rent. Something like HIgh School Musical and Enchanted. Their singing we 10000000000000 times way better than Vanessa Hudgens' voice. I wanted to watch the movie, and fortunately Tasha had the DVD. In the end, I was the one that slept first. Lol..


4 December

That's today. We woke up at 1130. Now that i notice this, but i haven't woke up this late in ages. I now use to wake up at like 9 or 10, just to catch Oprah Show in the morning. Thank god for holidays!! This's the only time I'm able to watch Oprah Shows. We took turns to shower cause we were going to Pavilion (my second time) as planned. We ate lunch in some sophisticated Thai dining restaurant. There was a new food court on the same level. BETTER than the one in KLCC. We went to FOREVER 21 after that. GOSH we all went CRAZIIEEE in there. I tried out on ALOT of clothes. Even some of the ones that i would never try if I went shopping with Mak. I kindda regret not buying anything today, but it was alrite. I still have another chance next time (cross fingers this Friday) to find something nice. We went to Starbucks after that. I didn't buy anything, although I bought myself 2 scoops of ice cream in Baskin Robins. There were 2 malay guys working there and one of them was kinda flirting with me. Most normal girls don't even give them a face but i actually made a full conversation with him. And in result, (my I add that I am very proud of this) he gave me free toppings!! Alot of toppings.

Mak had already started calling me and asking me what time I was going to go back home (such typical Mak). In the end Nisha and I are were going to go back with Athira. Bless her. We went swimming in Tasha's pool after we got back. It was a nice weather to be outdoors just now. FInally got to feel the Bali breeze that i was expecting to feel a week ago but didnt.

Athira's driver came half an hour early. But we still had to go back cause of the jam that is starting in KL. We 3 discussed about an outing that we're planning to have this Friday. We were all so EXCITED (probably more excited than Tasha) on what to wear and do on Tasha's farewell party next year in January.

Now I'm back home and EVERYONE (including Nani my grandma) are giving me shitty atitude. As if I've done something totally wrong. SHITTY ATTITUDES! grh! >=l

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